on failing

oy, it just occured to me that my solution might not match my paper.is feedback a solution for learning from errors? did i mean communication, or reflection, that might be closer to what i was going for. oops. a bunch of interviews talked about peoples unwillingness to share about failure, but now im thinking that i picked the wrong solution. if the definition of feedback is to help someone improve, then thats not the solutuon for people sharing problems. oy, i guess it was psychological safety after all, and no, i never got around to researching that. honestly, i could probsbly knock that out in a couple of days. but this is soooo late in the game to be , wait, these two dont meet up

One of the biggest chalenges of this thesis is doing it alone. After learning the richness of working in teams, with an amazing group of highly driven, but also, very different folks, this project is like being sentanced to solitarty confinement. Had it not been covid, i dont know if i could have spent this much time at home, ass firmly seated at my desk. But as of late, another part of me just wants to be left alone. I see a bunch of posts all over our class slack chanel, and i just look away. Considering that the major premise of my solution relates to feedback, why am i not requesting any? A bit stems from embarasement. Im really not seeing my way through the fog, if this thesis actually comes together, i will be amazed. Ive got some chapterts written, but in terms of a red thread, theres none. Early on, when I went up in front of a startup group and shared the topic of my research, I knew better what my research was about, somehow, mpnts later, im finding it difficult to articula

after several weeks wait, i got to speak to ashley good, the reason why i pursued this toic for my thesis. i had seen a ted talk on failure, where the NGO she had worked at decided to do the unheard of and publish their record of failures. instead of an annual report, their failure report pointed out all their failures, and this then launched her career as a consultant. based in vancouver, she runs fail forward which helps companies see the value of learning from mistakes. during the conversation, i lost my train of thought, like completely, and also could not think of some pretty basic words, like i had to ask her "whats that called when you act without a script" improvisation? she quickly replied. i conceeded that i might be a bit star struck, talking with the person who made this concept seem tangiable. yes, ther was Savoia (Author of the right it) before her, who turned me on to failosophy, and naturally theres Sitkin who wrote the paper that everytone sites back in 92,

the first team that i was on at hyper island came up with the name looop, to signify the iterative process of design thinking. unfortunately, we were inexperienced, lacked leadership, and were frustrated by differences of opinion on just about everything. as susan wheelan would say, we were stuck in stage 2 of team development. so now im workingalone, and while there are fewer disagreements, the lack of alternate perspective is frustrating. what i am beginning to see is that the learning is more painful, but faster in a group environment, that when you are a one man band. i recall seeing the guy on the street corner of brtatislava, with contraptions allowing him to play at least a hald dozen instraments. while he can keep all the coins thrown into the hat set before him, he never gets the benefit of flow while playing with other musicians. anyway, a i approach the stage where i propose an experience design solution, i must now need to return to the books to get theory on trust, and f

it was probably 3 months ago that i first asked for help, realizing that i had no idea how to do a project that i could not visualize. learning by doing right, but heres a little secret: i fucking hate learning by doing. dont get me wrong, i understand that once you nail it, the learning is way deeper. thats great, but DIY requires time, maybe twice the time it would ordinarily take since youre learning as you go. so perhaps not best suited to when you have an upcoming deadline. WAIT! how can you say that? what about error based learning, and everything you have come to understand about the value of learning from failue? well, ive definitely become a strong proponent of the benefits of experimentation. at least in theory. but in practice, im not sure that getting thrown in at the end of the pool is the best way to teach a beginner to swim. some will learn, others will never wish to enter the water again, and a small number will need to be fished out from the bottom. rob suggested tha

how do i say this, but i forgot that i had started a blog. my intention had been to write daily, now its been several days without an entry. i sippose theres no reason to post on a day when theres little that has changed. today i got edits back from my coach. i had given these to her 11 days ago, so im definitely concerned, because my deadline is looming. her feedback is useful, but with her health condition, she has not been present, and im not sure that this serves my purpose, i wonder if this turns out to be another dead end?